Moment of transparency

I recently started an LLC centered around all things literacy.  In my mind, it's going to change the world! My years of wisdom gained through my 27 years of experience as an educator have to count for something, right? I mean, I have so much to share, so much I've learned, so many mistakes I want to help others avoid. And I'm going to single handedly end illiteracy among 4th and 8th grade students. This should be a piece of cake!

But the truth is, I don't know what the heck I'm doing. Sure, I have a business license, this website, and even a Facebook group. But those things do not a business make! That's the part that's super daunting - the business of running a business! Each day, I wake up with a million ideas of what I should be doing. I should blog more. I should post to my group more. I should share what I do on my personal Facebook page more. I'm neglecting my Facebook page. I didn't meet my 3 posts a day quota. My niche is literacy, so I should focus on content around that topic. I need to be smarter about literacy trends so people see me as an expert and invite me to speak or work with their teachers. And don't get me started on the courses I haven't created yet!

These thoughts feed my nemesis, imposter syndrome. Maybe it's not a real business. Maybe I need to stick to just doing my 9 to 5 (actually, it's 8:10 to 4:10) and leave all of this other stuff to the "professionals". Maybe I'm all over the place because I don't really have anything to offer, I'm just regurgitating things that people already know. Sigh...

Ok, so maybe I DON'T know what I'm doing. But I have to do something. One of my favorite quotes is from Helen Keller. It was our daily affirmation when I was in elementary school in the Bronx. "I am only one, but still I am one.  I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something that I can." Funny that I still recite this and have made it a part of my life's mantra.  So what's my something? For now, I will be consistent in posting to my Facebook group. I will write authentically about whatever topic feels right. And I will trust that those who are supposed to be helped by my business will find me when they need me most.